A few weeks back I realised I was struggling with social media addiction again. Not that I can't get off it, but that I couldn't stop obsessively checking the statistics on it. I realised that these things that were supposed to be data to help a person understand how their channel was performing had made the switch into me allowing myself to attach a relationship to my own personal worth.
The last time I remember feeling like this was back when I was gripped by body dysmorphia and how the weight on the scales had shifted from being a data point, to an emotional measurement of my value as a person. And just how obsessively weighing myself back then had fed this addiction, obsessively checking my social media recently had done the same.
In this episode of the podcast I open up about each of these situations.